"The past couple of days your face has changed" that's what i keep hearing
"What do you mean..its probably the beard"i keep repeating as an answer.
Patients,friends parents.
It's not the beard and it cannot remain hidden.
They remember my face.They have seen it like this before.and they have seen it brighter
sometime after that.
One can not exist without the presence of the other
Darkness and light.
I believe that there is a dark side in everyone of us.Ready to surface when times demand it.
A powerful side with capacities we dare not reveal to others.Driven perhaps by a prejudice
that others will dismiss us,and perhaps capacities that define us as unworthy of love, affection
attention.The fear of rejection.The fear of darkness.
Its true that is not often a side we are most proud of even though it has been the force with
which we have managed to overcome difficult situations-the fear of losing someone close to
us,when we have to rip our heart out with our own hands.A dark side does not mean hate
does not mean unable to show compassion or forgiveness.its not just anger.
Some of us even ignore that there is such a side ..a side away from light.Yet if we accept
that a dark room truly exists then the path is open towards our true self and our self-
completion.it is a part of ourself after all, and there is no need to fight it in order to keep it
inactive.There is no point in denying who we are and no point in accepting that we are
trying to be something we are not.
We are not trying to invent another self, a self capable of doing things that we could not
possibly ever imagine we would do.An alter ego, a dual personality always ready to take
over and save us from trouble.Psychology has a name for it and last time i checked i am
not on neuroleptics.Darkness exists inside us and its closer than we think.We only need
to close our eyes.
Yes our face may change.But there are times when we feel unpenetretable to pain,to sadness
to sorrow when we feel that a track field is not long enough even if we keep running it for
hours,that no weight is heavy enough and we can keep lifting till our shoulders hurt. It may
be a cruel side dictating that every relationship in our life is temporary and that we have
to keep going with what we have got. And dealing with one problem at a time.Even the
ones that involve our parents
Cruel yes but also true."Nothing ever lasts forever"
Its a gift not a plague a darker self, every emotion every aspect of our character shows a way
towards completion ,even those the light cant reach .We are under the wrong impression
that in order to achieve completion everything has to be good and perfect.In fact the exact oposite
is true.In order to find the inner self, our inner power ,in order to complete ourself we need to accept
that inside us there is good and bad there is negative and positive there is the holly and the cursed.
And when times demand so ,then it is the time to fully comprehend what C.Young meant when
he kept saying that " Gold lies in darkness"
I speak only for myself yet i believe that i am not alone.
People should not be afraid to embrace their darker side. Ιn that way they may come out
much stronger than before,discovering one of the most powerful capabilities a man has.
Hope.
Light can coexist with darkness and the true understanding of both is what will bring us a
step closer to what we have always hoped for.its what makes us unique,its what makes us human.
A man has a choice...and that choice is what defines him as a man.
I chose to embrace my dark side and it is my choice. My own design.
People will feel let down,people will see a darker face,a colder heart.
I am past the stage of caring what others might say or think
After that its up to us whether we stay in the dark or start making our way up to the light.
Every person forges his own character balancing between the two.
As Lorde sings in this amazing piece
"I may turn my back on mother nature" but i will never turn my back to myself
This is who i am.
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